13. BERSARA BERSUARA | SIJIL SAMPAH | A retiree finally speaks about what was never taught.

Track 13 of 13 · SIJIL SAMPAH · 4:35 · Produced by ListingMine Music
13. BERSARA BERSUARA | SIJIL SAMPAH | A retiree finally speaks about what was never taught.
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About This Song

SIJIL SAMPAH | Track 13 of 13. The closing track of SIJIL SAMPAH. A retired lecturer returns to the same campus; his name is gone from the door and the guard asks who he is looking for. He remembers presenting the safe page whenever questions went beyond the syllabus, knowing the preparation was not enough but staying silent because the salary came in every month. Now, retired, he finally speaks, and the hall listens without reply. He watches a young lecturer repeat his own habits, and realises the key was once in his hand. A reflective ending about speaking up too late, and hoping other voices come in sooner.

Lyrics

Hari ini aku kembali
Ke kampus yang sama
Namaku tiada di pintu
Pengawal bertanya
Cari siapa
Dulu namaku di pintu
Markah ada di tanganku
Aku bentang halaman selamat
Bila soalan keluar sukatan
Aku tahu kerja menanti di luar
Aku tahu bekal ini tak cukup
Tapi gaji masuk tiap bulan
Aku pulang tanpa berkata apa
Aku kata sistem sudah berakar
Seorang saja tak mampu ubah
Setiap minggu kelas bermula
Aku pilih untuk diam
Bersara baru bersuara
Namaku hilang dari pintu
Kata yang kusimpan lama
Keluar setelah aku bersara
Mikrofon terasa berat
Dewan dengar sampai habis
Tiada siapa menyahut
Ucapan tamat di situ
Pensyarah muda berdiri di depan
Suaranya kedengaran biasa
Seorang pelajar angkat tangan
Pensyarah mengangguk kecil
Dia terus membaca
Aku kenal gerak itu
Aku pernah buat begitu
Kini aku duduk di belakang
Dulu takut kerusi kosong
Takut gaji berhenti masuk
Kini kerusi sudah bertukar
Ayat yang sama masih kedengaran
Bersara baru bersuara
Namaku hilang dari pintu
Kata yang kusimpan lama
Keluar setelah aku bersara
Mikrofon terasa berat
Dewan dengar sampai habis
Tiada siapa menyahut
Ucapan tamat di situ
Orang industri pernah mengetuk
Aku biarkan mereka menunggu
Aku kata sistem sudah berakar
Seorang saja tak mampu ubah
Kini suara datang dari luar
Mencari jalan masuk sendiri
Dulu kunci ada di tanganku
Aku tak pernah buka pintu
Bersara baru bersuara
Pengakuan sampai terlambat
Pintu yang dulu kujaga
Dibuka orang dari luar
Aku bawa pulang ceritaku
Kampus terus jalani hari
Mungkin suara lain masuk
Sebelum nama mereka hilang
Pengawal bertanya lagi
Cari siapa
Aku pandang pintu
Tiada nama di sana
ENGLISH TRANSLATION
Today I come back
To the same campus
My name isn't on the door
The guard asks
Looking for whom
Once my name was on the door
The marks were in my hands
I presented the safe page
When questions went beyond the syllabus
I knew work was waiting outside
I knew this preparation wasn't enough
But salary came in every month
I went home without a word
I said the system has deep roots
One person alone can't change it
Every week class began
I chose to stay silent
Retired, then speaking up
My name gone from the door
Words I kept for so long
Came out after I retired
The microphone feels heavy
The hall listens to the end
Nobody responds
The speech ends there
A young lecturer stands at the front
His voice sounds ordinary
A student raises a hand
The lecturer gives a small nod
He keeps on reading
I know that move
I used to do the same
Now I sit at the back
Once afraid of an empty chair
Afraid the salary would stop
Now the chair has changed hands
The same sentences can still be heard
(Chorus)
Industry people once knocked
I left them waiting
I said the system has deep roots
One person alone can't change it
Now voices come from outside
Finding their own way in
Once the key was in my hand
I never opened the door
Retired, then speaking up
The confession came too late
The door I once guarded
Opened by people from outside
I take my story home
The campus goes on with its days
Maybe other voices come in
Before their names disappear
The guard asks again
Looking for whom
I look at the door
No name is there

All Tracks — SIJIL SAMPAH

1. MAKAN GAJI | SIJIL SAMPAH | The lecturer guards his salary and dodges the hard questions. 3:41 2. CABAR AKU? | SIJIL SAMPAH | Challenge the lecturer and pay with another semester. 4:09 3. KULIAH SAMPAH | SIJIL SAMPAH | Outdated lectures that teach nothing useful. 4:12 4. PAKATAN SENYAP | SIJIL SAMPAH | A silent pact that keeps a failing system alive. 3:15 5. TANYA SIAPA? | SIJIL SAMPAH | The lecturer deflects questions he cannot answer. 3:28 6. AI LEBIH TAHU | SIJIL SAMPAH | AI explains it better than the lecturer. 3:28 7. LUAR BIDANG | SIJIL SAMPAH | Outsiders build the agencies that succeed. 3:50 8. SAMA-SAMA TIPU | SIJIL SAMPAH | Both sides pretend inside the same system. 3:07 9. SEMBAH SIJIL | SIJIL SAMPAH | Without the certificate, the career door stays shut. 3:18 10. KERJA APA? | SIJIL SAMPAH | Most graduates end up leaving real estate. 3:56 11. GRADUAN SAMPAH | SIJIL SAMPAH | Certified graduates still start work from zero. 3:55 12. YURAN LEPAS GRAD | SIJIL SAMPAH | After graduating, still paying to learn the job. 3:18 13. BERSARA BERSUARA | SIJIL SAMPAH | A retiree finally speaks about what was never taught. 4:35